Thursday, May 29, 2014

My (short) list of the worst things about losing 70 pounds

I recently read an article about the worst things aboutlosing 70 pounds, and I wanted to write my own.  You’d think that losing 70 pounds would be all hunky dory, but there are some downsides:
  1. Compliments are hard.  My self esteem is changing, yes, but it’s not changing as fast as my body is.  I still see myself as the fat girl, so sometimes when people compliment me, I literally do not know what to do, and I get awkward, really awkward.  Haha I’m just embarrassing. 
    • I had to add an additional one that is related.  Attention from men, another thing I’m super awkward with.  I mean, I’ve always been the girl that guys just jokingly flirt with, and I’d “jokingly” flirt back…but now it’s real.  I mean, I can handle my own…but in the end, I’m pretty sure I’m just awkward.  haha
  2. I don’t trust my body.  Other people do, but I don’t.  Yeah, I’ve lost 70 pounds, and yeah I’m working on getting fit, but really, can my body handle huge hikes, and jumping out of planes, and going wakeboarding?  Probably.  But, I have to psych myself up to do it.
  3. The scale is no longer something that sits in my bathroom and collects dust.  It glares at me, daring me to just try it out, and see how I’m doing.  Even during “breaks” it’s always there. 
  4. Clothes are SUPER expensive.  I’m sorry, but I’m not going to buy a million new pairs of jeans every time I drop a pant size.  I’m not going to buy a whole new wardrobe for every 10 pounds lost.  I have tried to keep up so that I don’t look like frump girl…but it’s just expensive.  So, I wear clothes that I wore when I was close to 300 pounds…and they are now tunics, but it works.  Haha

    "I was frump girl...up"  haha  Name that movie.  :)
    Proving that tunics are still in...because they have to be.  I posted a picture like this in 2012.  The right is me today, top is summer 2009, bottom September (I think) 2012.  All the same shirt, because I have to.  haha  :)
In the end, the great things, obviously, outweigh the “worst” things, but the “worst” things are things that you don’t really think about.  I’m sure everyone’s list is a little different. 

Sometime soon, I’ll have a post about the weirdest things about losing 70 pounds.  This is something I’ve been working on since I first started losing weight, and trust me, it’s a lot more interesting of a list than the “worst”.

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

To my friend(s)

One thing that happens when you start losing weight, and people notice, is that you kind of become this type of lighthouse.  People are always coming to me for suggestions and tips, for some motivation and encouragement, for some light along the path.  I realize that I have worked hard and been blessed, so I love to try and help in any way possible…but I feel nowhere near “inspiring” enough to actually help out.

My only wish is that I could do more.  I wish I could just snap my fingers and all my friends wanting weight loss success would have the drive to do it and actually achieve their goals.  Until I find those mutant powers inside of me (please, oh, please!?) I have my blog...and my email...and my phone to help out.

I just had another friend tell me that they want to start their own journey.  And so, I dedicate this post to them.

To this friend,

You are about to embark on an awesome journey!  But it’ll only be awesome if you make it so.  Your steps are up to you, your timeline is up to you, your success is up to you.  I’m not going to lie, it will be hard, you will be fighting against your natural instincts and sometimes those instincts will win.  Don’t get discouraged, it’s not worth it.  Just keep swimming.

Before you start, sit down and have a good conversation with yourself.  Why do you want to do this?  If your main motivation is “to look hot”…sorry, but you’re not going to go very far.  I’ve found that when I want to look hot, and when I hear it from others, the results don’t come fast enough, and the journey ends.  I mean it, really give it some thought.  It took me 26 years to really figure it out.  I have a long list, but my main motivation is my future family.  I want to do it for them.  So, why do you want to lose the weight and get fit?  Think about it.  Write it down.  Heck, start a blog…not really…that’s a lot of pressure.  ;)

Next, figure out the how.  How do you want to lose the weight?  A lot of people assume that I lost all of my nearly 70 pounds with diet and exercise, not true, I’ve basically only dieted.  True, I keep trying to throw in exercise…but it’s just SO hard.  Haha  After 68 pounds down, I’m just now starting to really train for a 5k, and I sometimes do pilates and yoga.  My suggestion?  Don’t start a diet and exercise regime at the same time.  Start the healthy eating, then when you, and your body, are used to it throw in some exercise.   

Also, give some thought about how you want to do your healthy eating.  Do your research.  For me, I found a program that worked great for my lifestyle.  Medifast was wonderful, but it’s not for everyone.  I wish I could still do it, but it just got too expensive.  I’m grateful for it though, because of it, I know what healthy eating is, and I’m able to continue my weight loss because of the habits I learned.

Now, I have a shake for breakfast, a light lunch and lean meats and veggies for dinner, with a few small, healthy snacks.  I’ve cut out sugar, most dairy, carbs, and red meats.  I’m a hamburger girl, and I love my pasta…but, I’ve learned from experience, they’re just not worth it.  Getting healthy is.  You’re probably going to be eating A LOT of chicken and turkey, and lettuce.  Haha Just come to grips with it now. 

Also, you need to learn what portions are.  Just because you get a salad at a restaurant doesn’t mean that the whole thing is one meal…I hate to break it to you, but it’s usually two.  The nutrition facts on your food will become your friends as you learn what you can, and can’t have.

Next: exercise.  I don’t have much to say, but don’t push yourself super hard at first.  You’re getting up your strength, and just because you’ve been losing weight, that doesn’t mean that you’re automatically fit.  It’s frustrating, yes, when you feel like your body should be able to do more, but just be patient.

Want some of my “secrets” and tips?  Okay.  J

  1. Drink lots of water…and I mean LOTS!  This will help you feel full and keep you hydrated.  Yeah, it’s a little bland, but it gets the job done.
  2. If you absolutely must have a soda…and don’t attack me for this…drink a diet one.  Yes, I have read a million articles about how horrible it is, so I get it!  haha  I only suggest diet soda so you’re not drinking your calories…it’s not worth it.  I was raised with soda, so it’s really hard for me to quit it…it’s one of those natural instinct things I just don’t want to fight.  Haha  So, yeah, I drink diet.  Sorry.
  3. Once a week, eat something that you want.  Now, you need to realize that this will set you back, but it’ll help your sanity.  Also, this meal isn’t “cheating”, it’s your choice, you shouldn’t feel guilty about it.  Guilt is a negative emotion, and for most people, negative emotions lead to more eating.  You own that donut, or pasta, or cheese fries, and love and enjoy every minute of it.  J
  4. Never forget your why.  When you’re being tempted to eat something you shouldn’t, think of your why.  Is it worth it?  Usually not.  (I feel like a hypocrite saying this one…I think I fall more than I fly.)
  5. You are a whole lot stronger than you think you are.  I promise.  I promise you’ll be able to say no, and it’ll get easier.  Don’t give in, and if you do, don’t give up.
  6. Involve the people in your life.  You don’t have to give every detail, and have them hold you accountable, you are an adult, that’s your job.  BUT, if you let them know, they’re able to encourage you and help you say no.

I actually dedicated a post to some of my secrets last year, if you want to read more or get a little more in-depth: Secrets, Secrets are SO fun!

In the end, my friend, I am always here for you.  When you just need some encouragement, I am here.  If you’re at a restaurant and you don’t know what to do, I am here.  When you just want to give up, don’t!, and remember that I am here.

You aren’t alone.  I’ve done it, I’m still doing it.  I’m always willing to help you along the way. 

You got this.  I got chu.  :)

Here's and updated picture...haven't posted one in a while.  Had to keep up with the bathroom pics, it's tradition now.  :P
68 pounds down!  ...and SO excited for X-Men tomorrow.  haha
Here's hoping those mutant powers come my way soon.

Wednesday, May 7, 2014


Good grief, I’m doing really great at this blog thing.
I hit a wall.  I just got sick of always having my weight loss in the back of my mind.  Having that there for 2 years is exhausting.  I just got tired of being held accountable to myself…and now with the blog, to others.  I got tired of being afraid of food.  I got tired of thinking in “what ifs” and “if onlys”.  I just was tired of all of it.  I wanted cheese fries and ice cream and to not worry about it.
So, I didn’t.
And I didn’t really gain. 
And I’m happy.
BUT, now it’s time to take charge again, and hold myself accountable, for just a little while longer, and get the rest of the unhealthy weight off.
For some reason, this restart is really dinging my pride.  I feel ashamed, like I let people down.  But, at least I'm moving forward.  I will get over this plateau, both physical and mental.
Back on track, starting today.  Not going to lie, my mornings are always healthy, I just have a shake or a protein bar.  So, no worries on that, it’s when I get off of work that I want to binge and not exercise.  Well, my friends, not today.  Even though it’s raining, I’m planning on going on a walk/jog after work, and I’ll eat the healthy food that I have in the fridge.  It’s all in the baby steps, in the here and now, taking it a day at a time.
So, I will.
I will succeed.
I’m going to Europe next month, and I’d like to at least be under 200 pounds, so that’s my main goal right now.  I have 52 days to do that…I’m just a little excited! J

So, here’s to yet another new beginning, and here’s to hoping it’s the last one.  I want it to be.

So let it be written, so let it be done.  J