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I'm going to make this short and sweet...I gained weight this week.  There are two factors: 1.  I started to exercise, and yes, I should lose weight with that, but 2. I ate food I shouldn't.  My family and I went and had Indian food to celebrate my cousin coming to visit, then it was my dad's birthday and I let him choose where to go for his dinner, and he chose pizza, then I REALLY wanted ice cream, so I had some.  Also, it's Conference Weekend, and it's hard to not snack...yep.
I'm not going to make excuses, it doesn't help to.  I'm just going to look forward and rededicate myself to the program.  I will not jump off the bandwagon for longer then a few days, it was hard jumping off for months, I'm not doing it again.  I want to get to my goal, and constantly jumping off gets me out of "fat burning" which takes me further away from what I want to accomplish.
So, friends, here's to a new week, with new choices.  Let's see what it h…

I Survived the Greek Frestival!

Last night was the Greek Festival.  AAaaaaaannnd, I ate lots of food.  My plan was just to go in, get my FAVORITE green beans, a salad and maybe a piece of pita.  Well, it's not that easy once you get there.  I ended up getting a Gyro, pilaf, meatballs, green beans AND loukoumates (BEST scones ever!!)  I felt terrible after, but then I had to remind myself that I'm living my life and I shouldn't feel bad for eating off plan once in a while.  I enjoyed myself, and that's the most important thing, right? For those of you who haven't gone to the Greek Festival yet, GO!!!  Right now, just do it!  haha  It's a tradition with my friends and I, and I look forward to it every year.  It's almost the season opener of fall, for me.  Oh, I just love it. :) So, I'm still loosing weight!!  I'm SOOO super close the the 50 lbs. mark!  (YEAH!  *happy dance*)  I'm thinking once I get to 50 lbs. down I'll get myself something at the spa, like a facial or a ma…

Why? Confidence. And How I Gained Mine.

The title of this post may be a little deceiving, as I was writing I realized there were two things that I really wanted to talk about the "why?" and how important confidence is in any journey to overcome something.  So read on, you wonderful people! :)
A lot of people have asked me "Why do you want to loose the weight?"  In my head I feel like it's obvious, but apparently I have to explain myself sometimes.  Also, if you understand the "Why?" it's easier to do the "How?"
So there are the more obvious reasons why I want to loose the weight: I want to be healthy.  I'm sick of my weight holding me back.  I don't want people to look at me and only see my weight.  I'm sick of walking around and if I hear people laugh, automatically assume it's because I'm big.  Also, I want to look good!  (AKA stinkin' hot! haha)
Then there are the not so obvious: sometimes when you're overweight it's harder to have children. …

I Left My Heart in San Francisco

Okay, so I just wanted to do a quick post on my latest trip to San Francisco.  Not a review or anything, but just to show some of my progress.  I went to San Fran last year (2011) in March and this year (2012) in August.
2011: 2012 (I didn't get any "body" shots of me, and this isn't the best pic.)
And for the craziest (I think) of all!!  Look at my face!!!!  Gah! :) :) :)
2012: Yep, that's a Ghirardelli sundae!  See why it was hard for me to stay on program during the summer? :)
 YAY!  I love being able to see my progress.  It makes it a lot easier to make the changes in my life.  Also, getting on the scale every week and seeing that I'm loosing doesn't hurt either.

The Ups and Downs of Summer OR Day 1...Again.

Remember that one time I started a blog?  I posted pretty good for about 2 weeks, then I went MIA?  Yeah, sorry about that.  The thing with starting a blog about one's weight loss is that you don't really want to talk about things when they go bad...or when you have cake and chocolate, and let's just say, not preform the way you should, and consequently you don't want to post it for the world to know.  Ooopsie!
BUT, I'm back on track now!  I've learned that summer is a hard time for me to diet.  It's not that I overeat or anything, I actually didn't gain any weight this summer (okay, I gained a pound), but I don't take the necessary steps to helping my body lose the fat.  Well, welcome back to school! :)  I'm now back on to my busy schedule (full time work + 5 classes= packed/crazy/stressful schedule for EmJay), so that means less time to just hang out and eat what ever I want.
I restarted the program about a week and a half, and I'm proud …

Buh-Bye BL!

One thing that I have completely forgot to talk about, but I'm sure was just assumed, is my goal of being on The Biggest Loser.
Like I said before, I have applied for the show, I think, six times, although it may be five.  This last Saturday they held an open casting call in Salt Lake City and I was invited to it well over a month and a half ago.  I decided that I would go to the casting call but I wouldn't make a new video for this season and I would just see where the lots fell.
For those of you who are unaware of what happens at a casting call let me explain.  There are hundreds of hopefuls in line. When I left they had already seen about 500 people and they had about five hours left of casting. They have two lines, the "Front of the Line" pass holders and the people who didn't receive a pass.  Just because you have a pass, doesn't mean that you have a better chance of getting further in the process.  (Note:  I got a front of the line pass from the show a…

Diet? Exercise? Or both?

Now that I've come out in the open about my weight loss and involved the world, the number one question is "What are you doing?"  Diet? Exercise? Both?
To be honest...JUST diet.  Yep, no exercise has been involved.  I know at some point I'm going to have to hit the gym for toning and losing that extra stubborn fat, but as of right now I am only dieting.
But here's the thing, it's not a "diet", I mean, yes it is, I have to say no to things and all that jazz, it's a lifestyle change.  Over the past few months I have learned what really I should, or shouldn't be eating.
Yes, Take Shape For Life is a program.  I do buy food every month, but it's teaching me habits.  Habits that once I'm off the program's food, will stay with me and help me keep the weight off.
My routine:
I work everyday at 8:30 (or when school is going, I have class at 8:30).  On my way there I eat a bar (program food) and drink a whole bottle of water.  If I have e…

Now to get fully up to date...

So.  In February I decided I was done with having my weight weigh me down.  It just got to be too much of a burden, and it became this constant thing that I always thought about.  I started to become conscious of what I was eating and I cut back on my sugar intake and I lost 15 lbs easy.  (282 lbs to 267 lbs...still gross, but getting better!) I began to research the "how to's" of losing weight, I even reached out to my Facebook friends.   Enter Nick Coombs.
Nick is a friend of mine from institute choir.  When I thought of him, I never saw him as overweight, just large in stature.  But recently he had lost a TON of weight.  I had a friend remind me of this and that I should contact him as to what he's been doing.

Doesn't he look crazy good!?
Nick and I talked about the program he did (and is still doing) and how he is actually a health coach.  I became more and more interested in it, so I signed up.   I'm not the best at actually talking about what the program is…

The Biggest Loser and Me

Yes, friends, I applied for The Biggest Loser.....5 times! haha

It's always been a goal of mine to help people, any way that I can.  I started to realize that I couldn't really do that in the state that I was in.  I needed to get healthy, I needed to take care of me first, before I could do anything else.  So, applying for the show was an obvious decision.
I never wanted to really be on The Biggest Loser.  What I mean is, is that I wanted to lose weight, not be famous or wear spandex in front of the whole country.  I did think it was cool that I could lose weight and people could watch my progress and grow with me.  If I had the money, I would have gladly gone to one of the Biggest Loser resorts out there, but I didn't have the means to do it.  Also, I didn't want my personlity and story to go to waste. haha
My first few times applying, I didn't really put anything into my application or video.  I knew I wasn't going to go far, but it was worth a shot.  Last yea…

First Off...Introductions

I've struggled with the thought of starting a blog.  Who am I to think that I'm important enough to have one?  No one will read it.  Then I thought to myself, "Maybe one person will, and maybe that person needs some help on their journey."
Also, the thought of starting a blog about my weight loss journey terrifies me!  I don't want to put my weight up for the world to know...but if that number keeps falling, who cares, right? :)

To begin.

I have, pretty much, always been the chubby girl.  I gained weight when I was about 7 or 8, and it just kept piling on.
One of the first steps to losing weight is: understanding WHY you gained it in the first place.  So, why did I gain my weight?  Simple, I'm an emotional eater.  My life has been amazing!  But has it been full of sunshine and daisies, unicorns and rainbows?  No.  Life's been hard.  If things get hard or stressful or sad, I eat.
When I was 8 my mom got REALLY sick.  She was diagnosed with kidney failure.…