Monday, December 30, 2013

To Clarify

Are you excited for the 31 day challenge?  I sure am!

Just to clarify a few things.

One:  The Dietbet.  This isn’t the actual challenge, it’s just something to help motivate people who are focusing on weight loss during their challenge.  The whole point is to lose 4% of you initial weight.  I promise, losing 4% of your weight in 28 days isn’t hard to do!  Especially if you have the right mindset, and a game plan…which leads me to point two.

Two:  The 31 Day Challenge.  This is the main part.  It isn’t necessarily focused on weight loss though.  However, my challenge is.  If you wish to participate in the challenge just think of something you want to implement or take away…something that will help to better yourself for 2014 and the future.

Do you want to better your health?  Better yourself spiritually?  Emotionally?  Socially?

Do something about it.  Make the goals.  Participate in the challenge.  You can do anything for 31 days!

What have I challenged myself to?  For 31 days I will:
  • Not eat sugar.  Except on my birthday. J
  • Not drink soda.  I’ll allow myself one a week for a treat.  Normally, I have one diet soda a day, so this may be a little hard.
  • Stick to my diet.  I’m not going to make exceptions or substitutions.  31 days is not long at all.
  • Exercise 6 days a week.  This isn’t going to be strenuous exercise all those days, just something active, like 30 minutes on the treadmill.  I just want to get in the mindset of being active and putting time aside for it.

Some might think that I have too many goals to work on, but really, I just have to be a little more strict on something I’m already doing.

So, what are you going to challenge yourself to? 

Let me know if you need any help or tips.  You can do it though…like I’ve said, 31 days isn’t that long!

If you want to sign up for the Dietbet, here’s the link again:

And the link to the Facebook group (so constant posts about weight loss and goals don’t annoy our other Facebook friends haha):

Thursday, December 26, 2013

2014 the Year of the Losers

Alrighty folks.  It’s that time of year when we make goals and resolutions…and the majority of people want to lose weight. 
I, myself, only have about 40 or so pounds left until my goal weight and I just want to be done so bad!!  I’ve decided to make it a group effort.  There is power in numbers, afterall.
I’m sure we’ve all heard the saying “I can do anything for X amount of time”…well, here’s our chance to prove it!  I want to start a 31 day challenge, for the month of January.  Who’s with me?  I’m planning on staying on track, 100%, for 31 days with my diet.  I’m planning on going to the gym or getting some sort of exercise 6 days a week.  (Yep, 6.  It’s not hard to go for a light walk on the treadmill for 30 minutes.)
Now, your 31 day challenge doesn’t have to be like mine.  Maybe you want to challenge yourself to no sweets for 31 days, or no soda.  Maybe you want to get your veggie servings in everyday.  Whatever it is, to help you on the road to health, you should join!
I’m not sure how many of you have heard of a website called Dietbet.  Well, it’s pretty neat.  It’s a social dieting website where you place $25 in the pot, you submit your initial weigh in (with photos of you with exercise clothes on, and your scale with your feet and a word that they’ll assign), you can check in during the month, and at the end, all players who have lost 4% of their starting weight split the pot.  It’s that simple, and super motivating.  I’ve participated in two…which I didn’t win because the end weigh in window was while I was in Hawaii.  But this time, I will be one of the ones splitting the pot. J If you want to check out more on Dietbet here's the website:
So, I’ve started a Dietbet that will start on January 4th (The challenge itself will start on the 1st, the Dietbet will start on the 4th to allow time to recover from the holiday J.) and end on the 31st.  It will help to be a motivator for those who are hoping to lose weight.  We’ll also have a Facebook group to just help support through the challenge.  I’ll plan on posting something every day, and if you need some encouragement, motivation or just a pat on the back, go ahead and post something too.  It’s a group for everyone who wants to change their life, and gain a healthy lifestyle in 2014.
If you’re interested in joining the 31 day challenge, email me at or message me on Facebook.  There isn’t any pressure, you don’t have to check in with anything, it’ll just be nice to have a support system.  (If there are enough participants we’ll do another one for February…and maybe there will be a prize?)
To join the Dietbet (this isn’t necessarily part of the challenge, just something to help motivate) click here:
To join the Facebook group “2014 the Year of the Losers” click here:
Again, if you just want to join the challenge, not doing Facebook or Dietbet, just email, text, call or comment here.  I’ll figure out how to check up on you. J

Well, good luck friends!  2014 will be an exciting year.  And remember you can do ANYTHING for 31 days.

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Just a Bend in the Road

Well, I’m back from yet another hiatus.  This time, I’ve been on plan and working hard, I just didn’t think there was anything to post.  So, sorry.

This post isn’t going to revolve around my weight loss, yes it will play a role, but it won’t be the focus.  I just know I’m not the only person in the world who is feeling the way I am right now.

I don’t do well with chaos.  I feel helpless and vulnerable, and who really handles those emotions well?  Lately, my life has just been chaos, and every time I think I have a grasp on the situation, it goes into another storm.

Yesterday, everything just piled up.  I am literally sitting here, in awe about how I have NO control right now, wishing I had a grasp at something…but I don’t.  (Imagine the opening scene of Gravity, and Sandra Bullock trying to grasp something in the chaos…that’s me.)  I don’t know how to fix anything.  I don’t know who to go to, to try and figure things out.  Chaos.  So, emotionally, I’m a wreck.

Enter: my dad.  For those who don’t know my AMAZING dad, he is the most loyal person I know.  Once he is loyal to you, he will care for you until the bitter end.  He took care of my mom in the most loving, Christlike way possible, and that has transferred to me, and words cannot express just how grateful I am to him.  He is just sweet, and strong.  He is smart.  Seriously, if you have a history or church question he can answer it, he reads probably 5 books at a time.  He’s hilarious!  To get to the point, one of his sweet hobbies is poetry.  He writes poems, and loves to read them.

My dad and I email every day, and I just mentioned to him how I’m feeling.  This is the short and sweet email he sent me:

by Helen Steiner Rice

When we feel we have nothing left to give
And we are sure that the song has ended,
When our day seems over and the shadows fall
And the darkness of night has descended,

Where can we go to find the strength
To valiantly keep on trying?
Where can we find the hand that will dry
The tears that the heart is crying?

There's only one place to go and that is to God,
And dropping all pretence and pride,
We can pour out our problems without restraint
And gain strength with Him at our side.

And together we stand at life's cross roads
And view what we think is the end,
But God has a much bigger vision,
And He tells us it's only a bend.

For the road goes on and is smoother,
And the pause in the song is a rest,
And the part that's unsung and unfinished
Is the sweetest and richest and best.

So rest and relax and grow stronger
Let go and let God share your load.
Your work is not finished or ended
You've just come to a bend in the road.


I have found the last four lines to this poem very beneficial in the past three years.

Dad for Mom too

Sweet, right? 

This is just a bend in the road, and I need to just keep going…and of course, I will.

I can’t control others.  I can’t control their situations.  I can’t control how others view me.  I can’t control how they react in a situation.  I can’t control a lot of stuff…BUT, I can control me. 

I am in charge of myself and my choices.  I’ve chosen (not today, but a few weeks ago) that I just need to focus on me.  Focus on my health, my spirituality, my education, and my happiness.

I’ve made a game plan to help become a better version of me, and so far it’s going pretty good.

In regards to my health goals:  I’m going on week three of going to the gym at least three times a week, and I LOVE IT!  Never thought I would be the person who wants to get work outs in. I’ve been good with my diet too, but I’m on a pretty big plateau…blah!!  I’m going to stick to my food plan and the gym for three months…after all, I can do ANYTHING for three months.  If I haven’t hit my goal by then, then we’ll reevaluate and get another game plan together, but here’s to hoping to be at my weight loss goal.

I hope I’m not the only person who sometimes need to just talk/write about what’s going on (as vaguely as possible) and feel like a weight has been lifted?  I feel a little better.  Obviously nothing has been resolved in my chaos, and I’m not sure when it will be.  But it’s just a bend in the road, so I’m going to “rest and relax and grow stronger”.

Love you all!

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

A Broken Heart

Yesterday I did SO good!  I didn’t cheat at all, and I was really looking forward to my Lean and Green meal for the day.

So my friends and I went to Texas Roadhouse for dinner.  They have the BEST chicken salads!..and also the best rolls…Whenever I go there I usually let myself have one and then I try and stay strong, which is normally easy because oftentimes they don’t refill the basket.  Well, our waiter was awesome!  He kept the rolls coming.  I was doing so good, reminding myself how I had stayed on track the whole day and I didn’t want to derail. 

But I gave in.  I had one roll, and then another, and another, and the next thing I knew, I had had five or six rolls.  No big deal, right?  Wrong!

To those that don’t know, when you don’t eat carbs, and then you overindulge, it HURTS!  I kept thinking I should just try and throw it up so it would stop hurting…but that would be a waste of a meal.

When we got home, I kept joking with one of my friends that I just needed to throw up because it hurt so bad, and then I made a stupid comment, one that I regret.  One of my friends came into the conversation and asked why I wanted to throw up and I said something to the effect of “Because I had five rolls and I don’t want to gain weight!”

This comment, obviously, and instantly put people on edge.  One of my friends said that I was now on “throw up watch”, another said that I had just admitted to being bulimic.

This broke my heart.

I have worked SO hard to get to where I am, and a stupid comment put my friend’s minds, and mine, in a different mindset.

I have NEVER thrown up my food on purpose.  In fact, I throw up so rarely, that if I do, I’m probably pretty sick, or just watched a throw up video with my friends (Yes, this happens against my will).  I have NEVER starved myself to lose weight.  During this process the only way that I have lost my weight is through healthy means.

My heart breaks for those that are struggling with eating disorders.  I know exactly how they feel, and I will be fully honest in saying that, in the past, I have given A LOT of thought of taking my weight loss down that path because it seemed like the easiest way.

In a world that tells you you’re ugly unless you’re skinny, especially when you’re a teenager, it hurts.  It hurts so bad, it basically burns inside.  (Oh man!  I will never forget that pain, and so just typing this I can feel that burning.)  I grew up in a world that told me I was ugly, and would never date, and would never go anywhere because I was fat.  OF COURSE! I thought about having an eating disorder.   

I remember, when I was in junior high, bawling in the bathroom, sitting by the toilet, having an internal struggle.  Wanting SO badly to fit in, to not be bullied anymore, to just want to be seen as beautiful, not only on the inside, but on the outside too.  I wanted to give in!

…But I didn’t.  I’ve never given in to that little demon voice in my head, and I NEVER will.

There are multiple reasons as to why not: throw up is gross, I love food WAY too much, etc.  But the main why not is because of one simple phrase:

“I am a daughter of a Heavenly Father.  Who loves me, and I love Him.”

I know, corny right?  But, this “corny” phrase has gotten me though SO much!  Some of those things are realizing how beautiful I really am, that I am worth EVERYTHING this world has to offer, overcoming the temptations of taking the “easy way”, and fully realizing that our Heavenly Father puts things before us to help us grow and become better.

Because of that phrase, the burning pain that I’ve felt because I’m “ugly” and “fat” has been extinguished.  Because of that phrase, I have realized my potential.  Because of that phrase, I have received strength to overcome anything, even an eating disorder.

Again, my heart breaks for those that struggle with eating disorders.  I will never fully understand the pain they are feeling.  I just hope that they can find the help they need and the strength to overcome.  And I hope that if any of my friends are struggling with this that they know I will be there for them!

I’m grateful to my friends for always being there for me, even when I make stupid comments in jest.  I don’t know what I did to get such a wonderful support circle, but I’m one lucky girl.

And with that, I will take my 2 pounds (Yep! TWO pounds!) with a happy heart, and a lesson learned.  But those rolls were dang good!

Monday, September 23, 2013

Ridin' Dirty

Alright, I’m finally updating about the Dirty Dash.  I know you have all been just waiting with anticipation to hear how I did. Haha!

Well, I did it!  AND it was SO much fun!

I ran the race with three of my friends and I was so nervous because the three of them are a LOT more fit than I am.  I HATE the feeling of holding people back, so I think I was more nervous for the fact that I wouldn’t be able to run as much as them, but we would all be staying together…so I’d hold them back.  Hard to deal with.

I had high hopes of doing the 10k, but I only did the 5k…but let’s just say that I got owned right before the end of the 5k and I couldn’t go on. Haha  The Dirty Dash has fun obstacles in the mud and it’s more about having fun rather than running a race.  (I think I ran probably 5 minutes, if that!, the entire time.)
So we started off, and you have to run up this hill, not a very big one, but for someone who doesn’t run/kind of hates it because it’s hard to breath, it was a little terrifying.  Luckily there were probably 100+ people so we took it at a slow jog, just trying to get around people…and that’s about the only time that I ran…seriously!

The first obstacle were some mud pits and mud hills that you had to climb though and over.  I was warned before the race started by my friends that I would be tackled into the mud…so I skipped over these, thinking that it would save me.  (So na├»ve!)  The last hill that you had to climb over to get out of the pit looked pretty big so I decided to help my friends out…and of course they pulled me in…and I was no longer mud free.
There were tires, hay bales, marshes, all sorts of different things that you ran through, or jumped over.  But there was one obstacle that I was adamant on not doing: the wall.  You know?  The wall you see that people have to climb over and climb down.  I always associate it with boot camp and probably falling to your death…or a very severe concussion. 

Well, we came upon said wall, and I bid a “Have fun! And Good luck!” to my friends.  But as I was standing in line with them, I knew I had to do it.  So I did.  I got to the part where you had to boost yourself up to the top of the wall, which is about 6 inches wide, and I started to panic.  We were so high, and I didn’t have the confidence that I could do it, but I couldn’t give up.  All of my friends were there for me, willing to give me a hand or a boost…they really are the greatest!  After what felt like forever I boosted myself up and over and got down.  I was so scared and pumped that I was shaking, but I did it!  Side note: I didn’t do the second wall, though.  It was too scary looking. Haha

When you run in the mud with your best friends that are boys, you are more than likely going to get more covered in mud than you normally would…and I got COVERED!  I was tackled, pushed, had mud thrown and kicked at me…and I loved every moment.  The last obstacle we did was army crawling through mud (of course!) under some pipes.  After it, the mud was in wonderful condition for some wrestling, so I tried to tackle one of my friends.  I did pretty good, got him pretty covered, but then he destroyed me. Haha 

Proof we got each other pretty good!

I’m pretty sure he got about 30 pounds of mud on me, and then we had to hike up a hill.  It was SO hard!  At the top of the hill was the end of the 5k, and one of my friends said: “I’m SO proud of you for going this far, and if you want to quit now, none of us will think any less of you!” 

Those that know me, know that I’m a proud person.  If someone says I can’t do something, I have to prove to them that I can.  I have to make people proud.  I have to prove that I am strong.  But in this moment, I wanted nothing more than to not keep going. Haha  I was so grateful for these words.  I knew that I had proved a point, that I had gained some respect.  So, I did a 5k!

I ended up just waiting for the rest of them to finish the 10k (which I’m pretty sure they ran a ton of it) so we could all finish together.  We did a giant slip-and-slide and had a few more mud pits and hills, one final mud fight, and we crossed the finish line.

True, I barely ran.  I didn't do all the obstacles.  I didn't even do the whole 10k.

BUT!  I did a 5k!  It doesn't matter that I didn't run, I still did it!  I found strength inside me that I didn't know I had.

Before and After. :) Greatest time with great people!

Next year, I’ll run more.  But for now, I’m going to be proud of myself.

I am a rock star.  I am worth it.

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Sayonara SEVENTY!

It's that time again!  I've lost another 10 pounds!  So that makes my weight loss 70 lbs down.  I've actually lost a little bit more but I'm just rounding down and I'll get to 80 faster. haha

Like I posted a few weeks ago, the changes are starting to become more and more recognizable.  I'm wearing a size of pant I don't think I've worn since junior high (maybe?) I bought a sweater last week that was a size smaller than the ones I bought last year...things are good!

I always like to kind of put things into perspective, since it's hard for me to see the changes sometimes, so here is what 70 pounds looks like: 

Kind of crazy!

Another update: I've started exercising!  And I actually like it!  I'm running the Dirty Dash in 2 weeks, so I've just started running on the treadmill to get up a little bit of endurance, and I made a goal to start yoga in September...I'll talk about that adventure a little later! haha  (Cliff hanger, right!? haha)

So here's to another 10 pounds down, and hopefully it doesn't take me as long as these 10.

Always remember that you are awesome and I appreciate you!  You're support and kind words keep me going, so from the bottom of my heart, I thank you! :)


Thursday, August 22, 2013

I found my people

I always thought I knew where home was:  North Ogden, Utah.  Well, I was wrong.  The second we landed in Hawaii, I felt like a piece of me was restored.  I didn't even know it was missing, but I found it.  Hawaii has my heart, and if I have it my way, someday I will return...permanently. :)

I didn't end up skydiving, it was raining pretty hard almost the whole day we had planned to do it.  But I'm not bummed about it, we have skydiving here.  It would have been cool, but we got to do some other things that we hadn't initially planned.

I took over 200 photos, and there's no way I can add them all here, so here's just a snapshot of a few of the memories.  I couldn't have asked for a better experience.  I was in my element, with my loved ones, in paradise.

This one is just to show how happy I was.  I was comfortable in my skin, happy as a clam.
I'm so homesick now! haha

In regards to my journey:  Before I left I was .5 lbs away from loosing 70 close!  I wasn't about to worry about food when I was over there so I knew I would gain.  We ate HUGE for basically every meal, so it wasn't normal, everyday eating.  But, I 100% enjoyed myself and didn't even worry.  I also 100% enjoyed the macadamia nut pancakes from Papa Ole's, the Shem's Burger from 7 Brothers, the Hawaiian shaved ice, the apple-bananas, mango, and other amazing foods and treats we encountered. :)

As of right now I have about 4 pounds to lose to get back to where I was.  That's going to be a breeze.  I don’t regret any of it at all. 

Hawaii gave me a new zest.  I feel more confident.  I can do anything I put my mind to.  So here’s to the future!

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Change is a GOOD thing!

Life is SO great!  I'm starting to see my progress, and it's really making me happy and motivated.

I have two AMAZING photographer friends!  The older pictures (when I was at my top weight) were taken by Shantel Urry and the newer ones were taken by Ashlee Parkinson.
(Hint: If you like what you see, click their name and check out their other stuff! :))

It's just fun for me to be able to see!  Granted I'm wearing a looser shirt that isn't tight on the right, but still, you can see it.  Also, and I didn't realize this, but you can physically see that my confidence level has gone up.  I've always know who I am, no doubt about it.  I just never realized that through this process I'm becoming more confident and I'm growing so much daily...that's motivation enough for me to keep going.

Wanna kick it Relief Society and hear a good news minute?  (This whole blog is a good news minute! haha)
I've been needing to buy some new jeans.  I only have one pair of shorts and one pair of jeans because it really isn't that great to always have to buy new clothes.  (I think this is the only downside, and that's because I don't have unlimited funds. haha) So, I grabbed a pair that I thought was my size, and to my amazement, they were too big, so I grabbed the next size down, STILL too big!!  I ended up buying a pair of jeans 2 sizes smaller.  I don't remember EVER having buying clothes this size!  I cannot wipe the smile off my face, I'm so proud of myself today.

Also, FYI, I'll probably have another post tomorrow or Thursday...with another GREAT news minute! :)

With that, friends, thank you once again for your amazing support and love.  Love you all and I hope you are all finding happiness.


Friday, August 2, 2013

I'm an idiot

I am!  I am a major idiot!  I'm not going to delete that last post because it's a reality check for me.  After I posted it I was just looking at it and glanced to the side at my "countdown".  And, you know what?  I've come a long way!  I'm 30 pounds lighter now then I was in July of last year.  I've almost lost 20 pounds more then I have to lose.

I've done SO good!  I just need to keep remembering that.  I've almost lost SEVENTY pounds!  

I can do it!  I just have to remember that loosing 1/2 a pound a day is still loosing!  Yeah it's frustrating, but if I just stick to it, I'll make it eventually.  

Sorry friends.  I'm a roller coaster today.  Just had to count my blessings! :)


.5 a day keeps the doctor away...right?

Okay, so this is a quick post.

I am frustrated!...and I shouldn't be...

At the beginning of my weight loss journey I was losing weight SO fast, like 2-3 pounds a day.  It obviously slowed down, and luckily I haven't plateaued yet.  So what's the problem?

I'm just so used seeing (or I just want to see) those 2-3 pounds a day that only seeing a 1/2 pound weight loss everyday gets frustrating.  Especially since I'm so much more strict now than I was before, I should be losing 1,000,000 pounds a day! (I obviously know that is completely unrealistic :) haha)

This is just my rant.  There is no substance to it.  It's stupid, I know.  I'm just being real.

With that, I'm going to Hawaii in a week!  I'm SUPER excited!!  (Even though I'm not to my Hawaii goal weight...stupid 1/2 pounds! haha)

Just keep swimming, I guess. :)

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Obsession and checking something off the list!

Have you ever been obsessed with something?  To the point where it's all that you think about?
I have.  And that's why I had to take a break.
I got so obsessed with what I saw on the scale that it was overtaking my entire life.  I would weight every morning.  I would look at calendars and try and calculate my progress for the near future.  I would obsess over what I was putting in my mouth.  At the end of the night I would think about what I ate and try and figure out how much I would lose, or gain...almost to the point where it was too much.
Luckily, this "obsession" didn't affect my outside life, just mentally.  I don't think my friends and family realized where I was mentally.  I realized that I needed a break to regroup my thoughts and calm down.
And so, with that, I'm back.  :)
There's a fine line between knowing where you are in loosing weight and obsessing, and, although it's hard, I'm really trying not to obsess this time.  Whatever happens, happens, just have to keep treking on no matter what I see on the scale and work to loose the weight.
I'm still at 222, so that's good.  :)
In other news, I'M GOING TO HAWAII!!  In 22 days!!  My friends and I are going to Oahu and just chilling on the island for about a week.  And guess what!?  Remember my goal of skydiving this year?  It's going to happen.  In Hawaii!  I'm SO excited!

I'd love to be as close to 200 as possible by the time we go, but you can't really control how fast your body releases the fat.  The skydiving company takes people who weight up to 240, but anything over 200 has to pay something like $2 per pound...ridiculous?  Yes.  Motivating?  Heck yeah!  I don't want to pay $44 more just because I have some extra padding. :)  So, I'm just going to work hard and be good with my diet, and just see what comes.  (By work hard, I don't mean exercise. haha Still have yet to really hit the gym.  Which I probably should since I'm running a 10k in September..and I don't run. haha)
I know I always have this grand "I'm sorry" post and always say that I'll do better and keep writing more...But this time, we'll see.  I don't want to become obsessed again, and honestly, keeping a blog and having an "audience" watching your progress is kind of intense so it pushes you a little harder than normal.

And with that, friends, here's a pic of what I'm looking like today.  (Beware:  I have NO makeup and didn't do my hair today.  So, I'm looking fresh! haha  When you have a pool, getting ready everyday just isn't appealing if it's just going to be completely ruined that night.  Also, I'm sticking with the bathroom pics.  I think it's funny now, and it really does have great lighting! :) haha)

Hope everyone is having a wonderful summer!  Make healthy choices and it will pay off. :)
Peace and Blessings! xoxo

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Secrets, secrets are SO fun! :)

A TON of people have been asking me about what I’m doing to reach my weight loss goals.  What are my secrets?  My exercise routines?  Any tips?  So, I’ve decided to share a few  secrets with y’all, ready? OKAY! (haha)

#1 Secret:  Losing weight is completely in your head.  It’s up to you to make the right choices, it’s up to you to find the motivation.  I’ve said it before but, before you start your journey, make up in your mind, first, why you are doing it, and second, that you can.  Trust me, it’s not easy to do, which is why most people only last a day or two, but it is SO worth the effort.

#2 Secret:  Don’t focus on exercise at first.  Really!  I honestly have not implemented a fitness routine yet.  I’ve gone to the gym and lifted ONCE, in October, and I think my muscles are still sore.  (Thanks, Sammy! Haha) I’ve gone running ONCE.  But as of last week, I’ve started to throw in walks.  Not so much for the weight loss portion of exercise, but I’ve had so much pent up energy I needed to release and to spend time with my bests.
With that being said, what to focus on?  Diet.  I have found a program that works for me.  I won’t go into the details, but know that I do spend about $150-200 a month on food that is delivered to me.  I eat 5 meals a day with those, and one meal is on my own, called a “Lean and Green”.  It works for me because it is so convenient with my on-the-go schedule.
Find something that works for you.  Maybe you have time to make every meal.  Maybe you are able to spend money on a program that will give you your food.  In the end, we all know what’s good for us and what’s not.  Make the right choices.  Instead of that donut for breakfast, have a portion of oatmeal that will stick with you longer.  Have fruit instead of candy.  Veggies instead of chips.
You know what you should or shouldn’t eat.  (Jumping back to secret 1) Make the choice mentally, to make the right food choices. 

#3 Secret:  This one is my secret weapon, seriously!  WATER!!  I can’t say it enough, water should be your best friend.  Now I’m not saying, right at first, to cut out your diet sodas (we’re losing weight we choose diet soda, right?), because I sure don’t, ask my friends, I LOVE my Diet Coke!  But cut back, and put in more water.  I can tell you that by about noon every day I have had 3-4 of my Camelbak water bottles.  My coworkers make fun of me.  They even order extra water from our supplier for me and they make bathroom punch cards.
haha a little embarrassing, but what can you do?
One of these two are ALWAYS with me.  Seriously, my secret weapons right here!

The reason water is so great: (Now this is just what I have found, I’m not going to go all medical on you.  But we all know water is AMAZING!)  

  1. It helps detox the body.  I’ve noticed my skin clear up, my joints feel better and just a better overall feeling with the more water I drink.
  2. It keeps you hydrated.  (See punch card picture for proof! Haha)
  3. No calories.
  4. My personal favorite: It helps you to feel fuller throughout the day and during meals.  Like I said, water is my secret weapon, and that is why. 

Do yourself a favor and buy a water bottle.  (I suggest one with a straw J)  As soon as you finish it, fill it back up.  When you go to the bathroom, fill it back up.  Make water your best friend in this process and, I promise, it will pay off.

#4 Secret:  Involve the people in your life.  When I was first starting to lose weight, I didn’t talk to anyone about it, BAD IDEA!  I got nowhere.  When it came to picking restaurants, we were always going to places that didn’t, really, have healthy options.  Because they didn’t know, they couldn’t help to motivate me.
But now, I’ve involved my friends, my family and even my coworkers.  When we go out to eat, people are thinking about my diet needs.  When it comes to snacking, I still do it, but not as often and not as much. (haha, you have to!)  It’s just nice to have people aware of the choices you are making.  Don’t be a closet dieter, it makes it harder to achieve success, and easier to fall off and make unhealthy decisions.
Proof!  Trying to eat healthy at In-N-Out.  It can be done folks! :)

#5 Secret:  Eat a donut.  Yep, you heard me.  Eat chocolate.  It’s okay, I promise.
Once in a while, let yourself have something.  If you don’t, if you’re like me, you will shovel a ton of food in one day, and hate yourself!  I’ve found that if I tell myself no all the time, the more I want it, and in the end, the more I eat, resulting in gain.
BUT, if I let myself have a piece of chocolate, I’m okay, I don’t overindulge.  It’s about knowing boundaries.
For example, we had donuts at a work meeting.  I wanted one, bad!  I tried to tell myself no, to no avail.  I gave in, and two donuts later, I hated myself. Haha  
Enter: yesterday, donuts again.  (I never realized how much I loved donuts until I started losing weight.  They’re amazing!)  I didn’t tell myself no, but, I decided to cut one in half and just have that half piece.  Success!  I didn’t go back for more, I didn’t overindulge.  I was happy, I didn’t think of that half donut at the end of the day and think of how far it set me back, or question why I ate it.
The fact of the matter is, unhappy people do not lose weight.  Make choices that will, TRULY, make you happy.  Which leads to my last secret…

#6 Secret:  Just be happy.  I mean happy with yourself and your choices, not the chocolate high happy that wears off in 10 minutes.  (Sounds a little contradictory with my last secret, I know.)  You know what choices will make you happy in the long run, and what choices won’t.  I believe happiness is a choice, made up of a ton of smaller choices.  Make those smaller choices count.  It’s better to be truly happy in the long run, rather than to give in now and be happy for a few short minutes.
With that, friends, I’m going to go fill up my water bottle, it’s been empty for 15 minutes. J

Monday, April 1, 2013

Holi Festival 2013

I have a few things that I look forward to every year, and last Saturday was one of them: The Holi Festival, in Spanish Fork. 
I love this festival so much!  For those who know me, know that I LOVE color.  I get mesmerized by it.  I also love when people are happy.  So, this festival is right up my alley, happy people running around, having a great time and throwing chalk at eachother in bright, beautiful colors.
I’ve been a few times and I just wanted to post some pictures here, it shows my weight loss progress really well.  (This is my weight loss blog after all. J)

These pics are from 2009...

These two pics are from 2010, left, and 2013, right.  I remember feeling disgusting and not pretty at all in 2010.  This year, I had confidence and I felt good the whole time.

Here's the group from this year. 
We had so much fun this year!!  I'm already excited for the next festival.

So, here's to looking forward to another great year, and another awesome Festival of Colors...and next year I'll be at my goal weight!  So, that's pretty cool to think about. :)

Friday, March 15, 2013

Farewell to 60

It may have taken me a little over a month to lose 10 more pounds, but I did it!!

I'm finally down to 60 pounds lost!!!  This is honestly insane, and I can't fully express my emotions.

60 pounds.  Wow.  I've expressed this before to a few friends, but, when I was at 30 pounds down it was a big deal, but I didn't really see the big picture.  60 pounds proves that I have done something hard.  That I am MORE than half way to my goal.  It's kind of mind blowing to think about!  Like I said, I can't fully express the emotion.

To put it 60 pounds into perspective:

I've lost that much fat!  How gross is that!?!?

I love to see pictures that show my progress, since I see myself everyday I don't really notice it.  Last August I went to San Francisco with some good friends to see some Giants v. Braves games.  So, here's a picture showing 7 months difference:
So the left is August 2012 and the right is today, March 15, 2013. My how 20 lbs. makes a difference.

Life is great friends!  Thanks for hanging in there with me!  I've said it a million times before, but, knowing that I have such a wonderful support system is the number one motivator for me.  So thank you!  A million times over, thank you! :)

And with's to 10 more.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Gee Wiz!

I just wanted to take a moment and thank all of you!  I can't believe the outpouring of love and support and kind words that came my way yesterday!  I truly feel like I have this team cheering me on, and wanting success for me.  So, thank you.

Honestly, words cannot express how grateful I am for each of you.  For reading my blog, for commenting on my pictures on Facebook, for talking to me about my success when you see me, even for the "likes".  You are the greatest people in the whole world!

I posted a picture on FB yesterday at 5:15 or so, and by 8:00 this morning this is what I saw (and it keeps coming!).  

I've mentioned it before, and I'll say it again.  Y'all are motivating to me.  If any of you are trying to make the healthy change, surround yourself with supportive people.  DON'T try and do it alone.  If people know, it will hold you more accountable.  Thank you for that!

Here's my 50 pound down picture.  I think I might start taking pictures every 10 lbs down so I can see my progress.

Also, sorry for taking it in the restroom.  Haha  It really is such a great place to take pictures because of the mirror...although I have quite a few mirrors in my apartment I could've used.  haha  I promise I'm not trying to be one of those people. :)

Again, THANK YOU!  THANK YOU!  THANK YOU!  I love you all, and would do anything for you.  I will always say it, if you need any help, or someone to talk to, some motivation.  I'm your girl!  You deserve happiness and success!  Never forget it.


Monday, February 11, 2013

A milestone

This will be short and UBER sweet...

I'VE LOST 50!! POUNDS!! :)

This is such a great feeling friends!  It's like this dream of losing weight and becoming healthy is no longer a dream, it's becoming a reality!  On my way there and making progress, just taking it day by day and trying to make healthy decisions all the time.

On that note, I did have one of my favorite treats this weekend: pretzels and frosting.  Probably shouldn't have, and it took me out of fat burning, but I'm not going to let it get me down, taking it day by day, remember.  So, today is a new day, and a clean slate. :)  I'm down 50 pounds, nothing could get me down today.  :)

With that, good luck to you all in your endeavors this week.  Thank you all so much for your encouragement and kind words, it really is so motivating to me!


Thursday, January 31, 2013

A Letter

A letter from myself to myself.

Dear Emily,

You can do this!  I know things get hard.  I know your brain just wants comfort foods sometime.  But don’t do it!  Don’t give in!  You’ve wanted this for so long, be strong.

In the past year how many times have you “restarted”?  WAY too many times to count!!  It’s normal.  It gets hard.  Our brains have been programmed and changing ANYTHING that you are accustomed to is not the easiest thing to do.

The thing that you have to do though, each time you slip up and give into your cravings, is not say “Oh well, I’ll do better tomorrow.”  NO!  Do better now!  So what, you slipped up?  That is no excuse to stop and restart tomorrow.  Tomorrow NEVER comes!  It’s always today.  Don’t do things that will make you regret yesterday.

Think of the future. 

Think of how you’re going to feel when you go to the mall.  No longer wondering “IF” but rather worrying about your funds.

Think of the pride you have now, because you’ve come SO far, but multiply it by 1,000,000 because you didn’t give up.

Think of how you’ll never be held back by yourself physically ever again.

Think of the strength you’ll have, physically, mentally, emotionally.

Think of how great you’re going to look.

Think of your future family and how what you’re learning now will help them to be healthy.

Think of yourself.  You deserve it.  You are strong.  You are beautiful.  You can do anything.

You deserve to be proud.  You deserve to be happy.  You deserve respect, not only from others but from yourself.  Don’t get in your way.  Remember the reasons why you’re doing this.

The future is now.  It’s made up of the choices you are making today.  Plan things out.  Take things slow.  Put yourself first, for once.  Your future is bright, and it’s full of successes and happiness.

You got this girl!
Peace and Blessings. Xoxo


Some Picspirations (made up that word now! haha):

For those reading this, I encourage you all to write a motivational letter to yourself.  One to reflect on when times get hard.  It was hard!  But eye opening, I had to remind myself SO much of my worth.  How many times do we put ourselves down and question whether we are worth making ourselves better?  We are!  Stop getting in you way.

Things have been going good for me.  I got sick, and rather than loosing weight, I gained.  So, I'm working on getting back to where I was two weeks ago.

Again, let me know how I can help you.  I'm here for you everyday. 

Thursday, January 17, 2013

My Goals...NOT Resolutions

Just a quick update on my week:  I've done good!  It was my birthday, and I even went out to eat a few times and I still lost weight!  I've stayed on track with my new healthy lifestyle, and I am SO happy!

Like I said last week, I have goals that are different from my resolutions.  My resolutions are set to help me become a better person.  My goals are just things I want to accomplish.  So here are my list of goals for 2013:  (Some of them are motivated by my weight loss.)

1.  Go skydiving.  I already have a few friends that are on board to do this.  You have to be at least 200 lbs. before you can go skydiving.   So this one is a goal and kind of a reward.  SO excited!
Do you like my awesome "Paint" project? :) haha

2.  Pay off debt.  I'm not swimming in it, but I am a student who doesn't really qualify for grants or scholarships.

3.  Get an Ipad.  Yup. :)

4.  Hike Havasupai.  My weight has always held me back when it comes to physical things, especially hiking.  By this summer I will be more fit and healthy, and I am going to go hike out to this B-e-a-UTIFUL place!

5.  This one is cliche, but...Take advantage of all aspects of life.  I want to LIVE my life and not in fear.  A lot of people don't know this about me, but I'm a scaredy-cat.  I get scared to meet new people (I sometimes have mini panic attacks and have to pump myself up), I get scared to do new things, I get scared when I'm not in my comfort zone, when I'm by myself (sometimes. I do LOVE going to movies by myself!).  This fear isn't a huge motivator, but sometimes it holds me back from meeting new friends or being myself 100%.  Well, no more...ish.  I know I'll still have bad days, but if a moment arises that scares me, I'm going to do it.  This is MY life.  I want to be as happy as possible, and this is MY year! :)

There you have it dearies.  This is the year of me!  By the end of this year I will have accomplished SO much and I'm so excited!  Last year was pretty awesome, but I get the feeling this year is going to rock! :)

How many of you are starting a journey of your own?  Remember that it's not just about losing weight, you really do need to observe all aspects of you life and make little changes here and little changes there.  That is what has helped me be successful thus far, and what will help me in the future.  If you need help, or motivation, just ask!  I will be your friend to help you when it gets hard, and I KNOW it gets hard.  I'm here for you all!  

Keep pushing through and making healthy choices!

Peace and Blessings!  xoxo

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

And there’s a hand my trusty friend!

I kind of wanted to write a post about New Year and resolutions, and the song "Auld Lang Syne" kept playing in my head.  So I wanted to find out what the heck the song really means, so before I start rambling on about weight loss journeys, here is the English translation of the original Scot's version of the famous song:

Should old acquaintance be forgot,
and never brought to mind ?
Should old acquaintance be forgot,
and old lang syne ?

For auld lang syne, my dear,
for auld lang syne,
we'll take a cup of kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.
And surely you’ll buy your pint cup !
and surely I’ll buy mine !
And we'll take a cup o’ kindness yet,
for auld lang syne.
We two have run about the slopes,
and picked the daisies fine ;
But we’ve wandered many a wearyfoot,
since auld lang syne.
We two have paddled in the stream,
from morning sun till dine ;
But seas between us broad have roared
since auld lang syne.
And there’s a hand my trusty friend !
And give us a hand o’ thine !
And we’ll take a right good-will draught,
for auld lang syne.

So, here's my trusty (hopefully!) hand my friends:

I taught a lesson this Sunday based on President Dieter F. Uchdorf's talk "Of Regrets and Resolutions", and it really got me thinking about making resolutions and the steps we need to take to achieve those new goals.  First off, a resolution is different from a goal, true they can be the same thing, but resolutions mean that you are resolute in your decision, that you will stick to it.  How unfortunate that many of us toss aside our New Year's resolutions within a week of making them?  Well, NOT ME! I say. :)

My resolutions this year:

  • Loose 60-80 pounds.  (I think it's healthier to do a range for my goal.)
  • During my lunch break at work, I will NOT go out to eat.  I will stay in the break room, make one of my Medifast meals, read my scriptures, and have a little me time.  By doing this I will actually be accomplishing 3 of more of my resolutions.  (Read on for those 3.)
  • 1.  Spend less money, by not eating out as much.  I was eating out at least once a day before, not good on the wallet or the waistline.
  • 2.  Stick to my Medifast meals.  If I stay on task with my meals, I only have 2 more meals once I get home, another Medifast and a Lean & Green meal, so much easier to figure out once I'm home.
  • 3.  Have a daily scripture study.
  • Kneel to pray every night.
  • Go to the temple at least once a month.
  • And lastly follow President Uchdorf's advice by:
    • Spending more quality/meaningful time with my loved ones.
    • Remembering and work on understanding more my divine potential.
    • Be happy.
There you have it, my resolutions.  I will be working hard at them, and some of them will be a challenge, but I am resolved to make myself the best version of me possible. 

So the question is, what are your resolutions?  What are you doing to make you the best version of you?

Coming up next:  How?  How do we make ourselves successful in our resolutions?  And my goals (which are different than my resolutions).

Saturday, January 5, 2013

New Year, New ME!

Who is as excited for this new year as I am?!  Well, I'm excited and terrified.  For the first time in my life, I have no clue what's in store for me this year, but I can just feel change around the corner.  I like to have some control over my life, so I'd like to have one change that was inspired by me...and you guessed it, this year is going to be the year I loose ALL of my chub!  And hopefully, it will be before the summer.
I know that I came back in October all gunghoe about starting back up...but then the election happened, which ruined me! haha
So, here I am, making a resolution to take care of myself this year.  Put myself first, and take care of something that has been a burden for far too long.

My first goal: to get to 220.  (I'm not sure what I am at right now, and I just ate, so I'll weigh in tomorrow.  I know, I'm not the most responsible blogger.)

My plan: Food: Stick to my Medifast meal plans.  Plan ahead.  Don't eat out.
Exercise:  Not this month.  I need to get back on track with my calories, which means I need to get my body used to having a smaller calorie intake.

So, there you go.  I'll report back tomorrow on my current weight, and we'll get back into this whole accountability blogging business.

Short and sweet this time.